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Numb.
I'm standing alone, once again you left me here without you. Why do you keep doing this to me, better yet why do I let you? Is this anything like how love should be, because if it is I want no more of it. It's just cruel and unusual punishment.
Your touch still lingers on my neck and I can feel the goosebumps running down my chest. Perhaps its just the breeze as the rush of yet another train passes by. alone at a train station, how pathetic, the homeless man seems more alive than I do, with his bright crooked smile, as he plays his guitar busking for money to eat. I wish I could love what I do like he does.
I'm not alive without you, I just float from day to day, work and study is just a distraction to pass time until I get to see you again. Sleep no longer feels important, not as important as being with you. When I pass you in the school yard my heart beats just as hard, you brush me off for your mates but I don't really mind because at night when I see you, you tell me you love me and I get to have you all to myself.
My friends say I'm just another mindles zombie, all my ambitions are gone now, all I really want to do is be with you. It's like my world is ending it's disintigrating right before my eyes and I don't try to fix it. I don't feel responsible anymore, I just feel nothing, but when I'm near you my emotions rise to the surface. It's not bliss I feel when your near, not even love or lust, but the point is that I feel when your near.
I can never let that go, your my emotion, your my air, I feel pathetic for not having my own independence, but only when I'm with you do I actually feel. I know I should be feeling for myself and it sounds ridiculous that I cannot, but before I met you I was numb, now that I've met you I'm not.
Is this my life now, Have I become co-dependant, like a pack of wolves that despirately needs order, my god are you my Alpha Male?
I'm standing alone, once again you left me here without you. Why do you keep doing this to me, better yet why do I let you? Is this anything like how love should be, because if it is I want no more of it. It's just cruel and unusual punishment.
Your touch still lingers on my neck and I can feel the goosebumps running down my chest. Perhaps its just the breeze as the rush of yet another train passes by. alone at a train station, how pathetic, the homeless man seems more alive than I do, with his bright crooked smile, as he plays his guitar busking for money to eat. I wish I could love what I do like he does.
I'm not alive without you, I just float from day to day, work and study is just a distraction to pass time until I get to see you again. Sleep no longer feels important, not as important as being with you. When I pass you in the school yard my heart beats just as hard, you brush me off for your mates but I don't really mind because at night when I see you, you tell me you love me and I get to have you all to myself.
My friends say I'm just another mindles zombie, all my ambitions are gone now, all I really want to do is be with you. It's like my world is ending it's disintigrating right before my eyes and I don't try to fix it. I don't feel responsible anymore, I just feel nothing, but when I'm near you my emotions rise to the surface. It's not bliss I feel when your near, not even love or lust, but the point is that I feel when your near.
I can never let that go, your my emotion, your my air, I feel pathetic for not having my own independence, but only when I'm with you do I actually feel. I know I should be feeling for myself and it sounds ridiculous that I cannot, but before I met you I was numb, now that I've met you I'm not.
Is this my life now, Have I become co-dependant, like a pack of wolves that despirately needs order, my god are you my Alpha Male?
hello out there?
anybody listening, I feel I'm just sending things into a giant void, does anybody care?
Numb, is something I wrote when I came home from school and was feeling absolutely morose, I felt that I couldn't feel when I wasn't with a certain person, Like they breathed for me and when they weren't there I wasn't either.
eventually I came to my senses and realised that I was being absolutely pathetic and needed to harden up.
so TA-DA
anybody listening, I feel I'm just sending things into a giant void, does anybody care?
Numb, is something I wrote when I came home from school and was feeling absolutely morose, I felt that I couldn't feel when I wasn't with a certain person, Like they breathed for me and when they weren't there I wasn't either.
eventually I came to my senses and realised that I was being absolutely pathetic and needed to harden up.
so TA-DA
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